Monday, 21 October 2013

A prayer for you

My dear son Timothy,

You may not be with me in this world any more. Nevertheless here is a prayer for your soul. Not a day since you left us on August 29, 2013 do I not think of you, pray for you and shed tears for you. For I have loved you so much and always will.

For the sake of my love for you, I am reproducing this special prayer which I just found in Facebook and feel so much relevant to you and me.

Love,

Daddy.


Saturday, 19 October 2013

Back in Murum

My dear son Timothy,

I am now back in Murum.

It is 2 months now that the last time I was in Murum. Then you, Timothy, my loving son left me on August 29, 2013. I waited for your 40th day anniversary on September 7, 2013 to hold a prayer for you. On October 14, 2013 I proceeded again to Murum. I am here to continue with my work and to some how relieve my thoughts, feelings and conscience. I am still deeply grieving for you. I love you forever.

Yesterday I went around the site. There were so much changes in the last 2 months. The Murum dam is virtually completed.  They have lowered the gate started plugging the diversion tunnel and commenced flooding the reservoir. The water level was steadily rising. Long Wat, the nearest penan longhouse is now under water. The penans have moved to their new homes in the resettlement area.









In the meantime that stretch of the Murum River between the dam and the power house has dried up. The once beautiful rapids, just half a kilometre below the dam is now gone. All that is left along that stretch are the giant boulders, polished gravels and puddles or small shallow ponds here and there. The view and scenery however are extremely beautiful. It is amazing to see what were once under water, but now exposed for all the eyes can see and appreciate.








When that stretch of the river began to dry up the locals were busy catching the fish. It was amazing for them to catch tons of fish within that 2 and a half kilometre stretch of the river. Good fish like empurau, semah mengalan and other types of fish were caught. I managed to join in the last catch, and amazed to catch a big (11 kilos) empurau and several semah averaging a kilo each. I am putting the pictures here for our pleasure to see.







I am sorry to say this my boy, but life for me has to go on. I may have lost you, but the creations of God are still around for me to see and appreciate. Hopefully I will get some comfort.

Tuesday, 8 October 2013

On your 40th day anniversary

My dear son Timothy,

Today is your 40th day anniversary. We went to visit you once again to light candles for you and to give you some flowers. In the evening we held a Holy Rosary Prayer for you. Many people joined us for the prayer. I stilled cried for you my son when we visited you. I know you are in the save hands of our Lord, Jesus Christ but I missed you so much. I still remember hugging you when you were sick and cuddling and holding you in my arms when you were small. It was only like yesterday. I still can't believe you have left me.

Some pictures taken at your 40th day anniversary, October 7, 2013. Your family, brothers, in-laws, nephews and nieces, mum & dad were there to be with you. We love you and miss you very much.

We lighted candles for you to light up your paths to our Lord


Some of your nephews and nieces


A pot of flower ready for you


That's the temporary shed we put up for you


We gathered around you


Putting up the temporary shed for you


The start of candle-lighting


Some more candles for you


And more


And more


A pot of flowers for you


We are there for you


All candles lighted


We sat there for you


We remember you


Candles lined up for you


More candles lined up for you


Yes, more candles for you


And more


That's it. All candles lighted up


Your bikes are still there


Both of them
That's it Timothy. We love you forever.

Saturday, 5 October 2013

A Mother's Prayer, celine dion



Timothy,

I add this for your mum who loves you equally. I am sure she missis you as much as I am. We both love you very much to the end. From the moment your were born until the time you left us, I know she loved you every moment she cared for you.


Wednesday, 2 October 2013

Thinking of you

Timothy,

I am thinking of you today, in fact the whole day. Then I went through my computer and tried to find something that could "heal" me, and I found a song that I used to listen to and it very much reminded me of you. I am putting up this song here for both of us to listen to - My heart was home again.



I will always love you my boy.

Yours,

Daddy.